Wednesday, May 14, 2008


What a whirlwind this life can be! I want to sit and drink in each moment with my little girls. I want to spend more time with my sisters and all their kids before Jenny moves to Minnesota in just a few short months. I want to be a better wife....the kind that at least cooks dinner more than once a week. I want so badly to do things better but feel like I just don't have time.

The girls (meaning the older 2, not the baby) have been swimming on a mini swim team for the past month. It is great exercise, they have a blast, but it takes time! It started out as just two days per week, for 30 minutes. Now Kourtney is supposed to be there a minimun of 3 days a week, for an hour each time. She got promoted to a more advanced group and is so thrilled with herself for meeting a personal goal. Don't get me wrong, I think it's great. I just feel a bit overwhelmed today.

Some moms I know can really do it all. I can't. I am telling myself not to compare...don't dare compare. Yet, I feel a little wimpy. Here's an example. We did a great morning of school yesterday, then went to the Carmel mission on a field trip with another homeschool family, then to the library and then to swimming. By the time I got home, I just wanted to go to bed. However, I had to make dinner, switch over some laundry and do other household chores. Poor baby Jacklyn didn't get a decent afternoon nap and I just had to wonder if it really is worth it all?! I see such value in the things we did, but.....isn't a baby's nap more important? :) Ug! Maybe I just need to be more flexible.

I really can't even get started on the whole Jenny moving thing....that one will make me cry. I also can't write about how much I want to soak up every second with my girls and how fast they are growing up. I'd love to....but I don't have time! :)

Seriously, I will blog more about these things soon. They are so on my mind. I really must sleep for now. It is nearing midnight for goodness sake and Jacklyn will be up soon.

1 comment:

jenny said...

Just remember... school is almost over! You can do it! Then you'll still have swimming, but at least the rest of your days will be free.

And lets look forward to enjoying our together adventures coming up... you'll have my kids for a few days, then Disneyland, then Jacklyn's birthday, then Shauna's wedding! Lots of fun to be shared before we leave!

Love you!