What a whirlwind this life can be! I want to sit and drink in each moment with my little girls. I want to spend more time with my sisters and all their kids before Jenny moves to Minnesota in just a few short months. I want to be a better wife....the kind that at least cooks dinner more than once a week. I want so badly to do things better but feel like I just don't have time.
The girls (meaning the older 2, not the baby) have been swimming on a mini swim team for the past month. It is great exercise, they have a blast, but it takes time! It started out as just two days per week, for 30 minutes. Now Kourtney is supposed to be there a minimun of 3 days a week, for an hour each time. She got promoted to a more advanced group and is so thrilled with herself for meeting a personal goal. Don't get me wrong, I think it's great. I just feel a bit overwhelmed today.
Some moms I know can really do it all. I can't. I am telling myself not to compare...don't dare compare. Yet, I feel a little wimpy. Here's an example. We did a great morning of school yesterday, then went to the Carmel mission on a field trip with another homeschool family, then to the library and then to swimming. By the time I got home, I just wanted to go to bed. However, I had to make dinner, switch over some laundry and do other household chores. Poor baby Jacklyn didn't get a decent afternoon nap and I just had to wonder if it really is worth it all?! I see such value in the things we did, but.....isn't a baby's nap more important? :) Ug! Maybe I just need to be more flexible.
I really can't even get started on the whole Jenny moving thing....that one will make me cry. I also can't write about how much I want to soak up every second with my girls and how fast they are growing up. I'd love to....but I don't have time! :)
Seriously, I will blog more about these things soon. They are so on my mind. I really must sleep for now. It is nearing midnight for goodness sake and Jacklyn will be up soon.